confused,
excited,
scared,
pursued,
happy,
questioning,
uncertain,
I am a mixed bag of emotions at the moment - it has been a busy few weeks and I really haven't had much time to reflect on what is happening at the moment. I am trying really hard to take one step at a time - but things/others are really not letting that happen. Today is the first day in over a fortnight when I have really had time on my own and the peace to work through how I am feeling - and the list above just about covers it.
I really am loving my placement at the moment - so much going on and so much to be involved in. And I really do feel part of it all. But I know that just around the corner change is about to happen - change that keeps peeking round the corner at ME! As much as I have resisted peeking round that particular corner - it keeps peeking at me. If it were just me that was affected then I might be dealing with it a bit better but it affects so many people...people I love....people I don't even know...
Argh!!!
Lord,
I am so trying to hear your voice amidst the noise,
help me get rid of the tinnitus distracting me,
help me work through your plan,
keep those I love close to me,
let them see that they are important.
This is my prayer.
Amen
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"And all shall be well, and all manner of thing shall be well"... and it will... honest!! But the getting there is hard and often overwhelming. One thing I did learn from the whole process is - take your time. Don't let other people dictate the pace of the change for you or your family. (Also taking deep breaths and eating chocolate/and or drinking wine helps too). You are in my prayers xxx
Thanks for that - its the pace thing that rattled me today! Took some assertive action this afternoon and now feel a bit better. So now off for that wine - not really a chocolate person!
Prayers most appreciated tho' - you sound like things are a bit tough at the mo - hope things work their way through - will keep you in my prayer too xx
Yes things are a bit grim... mainly because we have had a really bad Quinquennial survey report on the church building... bottom line... the church may not survive it... and last night I had to present my report on the building and on our finances (equally bad) to the Board and Session - it was hard as I didn't want them to think there is no hope, but I did want to give them a true picture of the predicament we are in. A meeting with presbytery and gen trustees being arranged for later this month so the whole thing is now out of our hands!
My advice... along with all the other stuff they tell you to look at before accepting a call... add in the quinquennial property surveys for at least the last 30 years!!
But I am still smiling :-)
Glad you can still smile - and I am glad for them they have you as their minister. The right person at the right time:-)
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